Friday, May 28, 2010

Oh my.

Sorry about the ridiculously long hiatus.
Being a full time student and working two jobs as well as having a boyfriend have currently been eating all of my time.

But summer is HEREEE!
I'm still working a bunch, but I have considerably more time now.

I promise to have a quality blog up soon instead of a bunch of rubbish I could write right now.. Because honestly, right now I'm pretty pissed at my boyfriend right now... And it's not even over a GOOD reason.

I'm just too stubborn for my own good.

But yes.

A nice blog when I'm less pissed fer sure.

:]

Monday, May 3, 2010

Secret

The sunshine dances in your hair
I feel beautiful as I linger in your stare
Captivated as a moth drawn to a flame
Wildly more enchanted the more we get tangled in this game

Kiss me
I taste your mouth locked behind my lips
Sweetly
I smile behind crossed fingertips
You said you’d love me forever
If from afar and silently
I’ll keep your secret safe with me

The honey in your skin too sweet to waste
I became drunk in my unconscious haste
Golden dreams we wished on tainted stars
While your promises and wishes never would be ours

And I jumped feet first into the cold unknown
Never knowing that you never meant to follow
As roses full in bloom will wither in the sun
Disillusionment unravels us

Kiss me
I taste your mouth locked behind my lips
Sweetly
I smile behind crossed fingertips
You said you’d love me forever
If from afar and silently
I’ll keep your secret safe with me

But you went back (But you went back)
Back on me (Back on me)
If you had only said (If you had only said)
Your love wasn’t free

The price I paid was much too great
Left me with nothing but broken faith
If we get the love we think we deserve
How is it I’m the one who’s hurt?

Kiss me
I taste your mouth locked behind my lips
It burns me
How you smile behind crossed fingertips
You said you’d love me forever
This time you are naïve if you think
I’ll keep your secret safe with me

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Prayer

My voice resounds like broken bells in domes of churches
It would shatter glass if someone heard it
I kneel, I bleed, my repentance
For sins unsaid, with lowered head, I wait for forgiveness

Leave my every leaf unturned
Let me rise to fall again
It’s what I deserve in the end
If I refuse to fight
Will that suffice, my atonement?
Save me before sin begins, before it wins
Amen

It begins with a joy, pure and new
Swiftly the apple starts to shine
Before long the hole in your chest starts to ache
As the serpent makes its way inside
You find you have nowhere to hide

A sudden spark springs to sleeping psychosis
Buried beneath what once sufficed
Desperation drags the darkness to the surface
To shatter mirrors, mirror matters ever madder

Leave my every leaf unturned
Let me rise to fall again
It’s what I deserve in the end
If I refuse to fight
Will that suffice, my atonement?
Save me before sin begins, before it wins
Amen

Can you help me?
Confession never felt like this
Not quite painful and not full of bliss
Can you save me?
Save me from what I’m to become
Before what’s left of me is none

This is my last prayer
One final plea left to exchange
All I have to give is yours if you forgive
Me, If I refuse to fight
Will that suffice?
Will that suffice?
Amen



(Yeah, these are lyrics/a poem. Make of it what you will.)