Sunday, January 24, 2010

Free Spirit?

As always, it's freaking 3:23 AM and I should really be sleeping by now, but instead I'm sitting up in bed, typing away in the dark. You know you're jealous.

My question of the day: what does it mean to be a "free spirit?"

I've been thinking of the answer to that since yesterday when I went out to enjoy one of the rare rainy days in southern California with my dogs. Most people I know out here hate the rain -- duh, they're Californians -- but I embrace it. I collared up and tossed both of my 80+ lb Weimaraners in the backseat of my little Honda Civic and, with my CD player blasting The Used, drove out to Belmont Shore to walk in the rain and window shop. On the way back the rain stopped and I put all my windows down, put the volume up on my music, and enj
oyed the wind in my hair and seeing my breath in the cold air inside my car as I sang along to the songs. In that moment, I thought "I'm a free spirit." I felt like one. But then I thought what the hell does that mean? To me, it means doing something unconventional, what most people wouldn't do.. Not being constrained or weighed down by anything.. Really feeling free, whatever that means to you. For me, I always seem to feel that way when I'm driving in my car with the wind in my hair, either coming back from the beach or in the rain. I don't know why; I just do.

So, what
does it mean to be a "free spirit?" What makes you feel like one? :-)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

I fall in love with you again.

Love, you make me happy
'Cause Darlin, you love me sweetly,
And I
I'll love you truly
'Cause Heaven only knows how long I'll have you.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Late Resolutions!

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Okay, so I was thinking about it for a while, and usually people make New Year's Resolutions at the very beginning of the new year, but whatever. I'm late haha. Here are mine:

1. Lose weight: I'm serious this time. I'm setting myself a goal. If I can lose at least 15 lbs within the next three months I shall allow myself to splurge on either an iPod case I've been pining away for the last few weeks or get a really nice designer accessory. (Yay for incentives!) So this ultimately means to cut back on eating out, no eating after dinnertime and no junk food. Welcome to Hell.

2. Break my habit of typing using shorthand or improper capitalization in my blog.

3. Get an A in my statistics class. Me + math = :-( I shall try to fix this.

4. Break my habit of going to bed past 2 am and waking up at 12:30 pm. :-/ I'll try to go for something decent. How about bed no later that 1 am, waking no later than 11 am? Is that still unreasonable?

5. DECIDE A MAJOR BY THE BEGINNING OF MAY (lest I be stuck in the pits of junior college forever!)

6. Spend at least 1 more day with my family per week and cherish it instead of loathe it.

7. Sing more, play more, record more :-D

Number 1 is definitely my highest priority.
The holidays have made me SO chubby :[

But, on the bright side, today I got news that I won Imogen's mascara giveaway! I really admire her and I'm a sucker for beauty gurus, so if you're like me, check her out :]

So, final question: what are your resolutions for 2010? Let me know! :-)

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


I don't know why, but I'm just down in the dumps. I'm getting pissed over stuff for no reason... and really stupid stuff too.

It could just be that my female side is acting up, or because I quit a job that I really love today. It just wasn't worth it any more though. :[

I'm being vague and I'm rambling, but I can't be any clearer with people I know reading this. That's funny, isn't it? I can spill my whole heart out to a stranger, but not to friends or family. This probably means that I shouldn't be posting all this online, but it's ok. There's no incriminating evidence on here.

My wishes are:

1. To be older
2. To be rich
3. To ace all my classes this semester
4. To be skinny or at least healthy. Being scared of having a heart attack at night sucks.
5. Figure out who I am and what I want to major in/do as a career

I was going to ramble on a bit more, but I changed my mind.
I'll write more later.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

officially twentyten